烟花 美丽的死亡

  Ugly year makes me healthier in somehow. Coz in this ugly year, I started to swimming a kilometer per a day, and I even began to lose my weight for like 10 pounds.  The real reason that why I said it's a really ugly year is because I have graduated from the college with really bad luck this year, and got trapped in a sweet love story which is a decisive factor for me to decided came back to ChangSha.

   I said it’s an ugly year because in this year, I always suffered mental depression in a lot of things. From the very first month doing a post-production work for PRC administration in Beijing, to the last month teaching a training course on the TV&film making field in both high school and college in Changsha, I felt I was trapped by anonymous depression each time while I was doing a single work.

NO PASSION AT ALL!

      New year is about to coming, hopefully I could have some new luck in the new year.

The coming week would gonna be a chaos week, the last week did also.

I have lost something around me, which is not a cell phone, not an asset, but something really important to me and once I lost it, I thought it would be impossible for me to get it back. Either maybe I don’t wanna get it back.

The thing is, I tend to be acting like this kind of people. Once they lost something,, They would try to forget all about this stuff. So, I told myself to forget, to erase the memory of this lost stuff. It’s hard, but a effective way.

I stretch my arms in the darkness. I felt like I could have the whole world right in my arm. But I could have it in my arm.

 

 

One of my classmate in college was married her boyfriend in the Thursday. The bride that day is so beautiful. But the wedding actually takes a little sadness feeling. The bride’s father felt quite lost in the wedding party and I could tell that all of our classmates who have been invited was sad also since nobody was willing to tell how time goes by so fast and 7 years have been passed by since we were the freshman in the college.

My parents arrived in Peking; they were coming for my new apartment decoration. It’s a tough job for me I promise, I couldn’t even tell any single differences of the decoration material. So I need their help badly. And we have been hanging around the decoration material market for days. Discussing the blueprint, well, I learned a lot from that process and I really appreciate them badly.

So, that’s it. It’s a boring chaos week and boring blog.

 

Oh, I recalled that I wanna to write something about KiKi. Well, I will do it, but not this time, not in this chaos blog. So, maybe next time or someday I miss u, I would began to write something on that.

Hey Follows:
    Before I went to US what's in my mind are Apple Pies, Rock'n' roll music,Hollywood Movies and of course, The hot American girls. There is one of my friend who lived in L.A remind me that "hey, do you wanna to live in a city like the movie Crash desribed? We could hear gunshots near by my house everyday." which really frigtened me. So, at first, to me L.A is a city filled up with various elements , where also brings conflicts in this City.
    The very moment I got in the L.A got in the USC and , I started to realize that I had to forget about having fun in this place since my original idea about making a documetary in terms of taxi diver in L.A had come to a abortion. The taxi in L.A is not a prevail way for transportation. You could hardly saw a taxi in the street not as Beijing since everyone in L.A got cars.
    So I tried to work this out with my fancy parter Cesare and our teacher Mark Harris. I had recalled I ever played soccer with a branch of Mexican kids the next day I got USC.  Personally, I'm fond of soccer since I was a kid. Besides, the period when we stayed in the US was the World Cup time. But there is not much American watch World Cup apart from the Hispanic or what they called latino American. So I came with the idea that maybe I could make a doc about soccer in America since it's not a popular sports. Coz, soccer is the most popular sports in the world. L.A,  as a globlized city, is not just facing the mixed people from all round the world there but also have to face the globlized sports, which reperesents the culture mix. so I decided to take soccer as a perspective to explore the filled in problem in L.A. My parter Cesare helped me out with this a lot, His wife happens to be a ESL teacher who is dealing with foreign kids everyday. They told me a lot about what is the real problem behind soccer and showed me some strong evidence. Which at last, comes to the doc that we have seen today---Goal
    I really wanna appreciate the CUC SCT and USC SCT offered us the opportunity to make this come ture. Thanks to Marsha Kinder and professior Guanlin Caiwei, they encouraged me a lot during the whole working process when I felt fustrated. without them I could not make it. Thanks to my parter Cesare oversea. Thanks to all the guys come to this room to share our acheveiment. Thank for all!

    The vacation-- I just called this period as a vacation since it is a extra awesome time for me staying in the "Lovely Cinderella" crew. Everybody is so nice here, it's really a good experience for me.
    The day I decide to leave this place is probably also the day we should get drunk. The Crew is prepareing a party for me which could be very exiting. We could stay high in the famous bar in Changsha called "SoHo". Departure always company with tears. Hopefully we won't get so sad that night.
    Marsha is in Beijing now, She could present our Doc premiere in CUC. That's the mainly reason why I have to get back to Beijing so soon. It's just 2 month since we saw each other in L.A last time. but it feels like more than 1 year. She worked on interactive narrative project which I am very interested in and I wanna work on this subject as my final degree desertation. So I think it would be quite helpful for having a conversation on that subject with her.
    I talked with KiKI who happens to be the classmate in my elementry school, So I decide to write something about her in the other day. so, today, the ending should comes to ______

 

to be continued...........
               

   He is a musican, this title could show me the best respect on this guy. he is also a good guitar player, a good girl picker, he is my good fellows.
   I finished my current work yesterday, and decided to meet he, try to have fun together since we didn't meet each other for a long time. Normally, the way we have fun together is having some alcohol and chat for hours and hours, music could be the better.
   Last night is also great, I was wondering why we could always come across some interesting things When we spend times together since yesterday night we went to a KTV, the beginning purpose we went there is because there is a friend of Ye called us and ask us to company with a rich lady who's from Shanghai that night. But 10 minutes later since we got there, they just left us away from the KTV leaving us a empty-already paid-KTV box. We spend the whole night in the box, kept on singing the Beyond songs. listenning MC Hot-Dog which is really wonderful night for us. I never spend KTV time with a guy only. It's been a lot of fun, and also improve that the KTV could have different way of fun without girl.
   Besides, my good fellow is in love, I look into his eyes while he was talking about his lover. He's so eager f0r the new love story. To be frankly, I don't know how long this time would takes, coz he is just like me, once he is in love, at the beginning, he is so serious on that, but as the time goes by, the ending would go to another direction.
   Anyway, wish he could have happiness this time.
   So, where is my happiness?

   I spend nearly 2 months in Changsha working in Hunan ETV's new reality show which is called"Lovely Cinderella". It's a programme supported by a plastic surgery hospital in Changsha, They wanna show the magic power of the plastic Surgery which could change a people's whole life, and of course, use the TV to make a huge advertisement for them.
   Actually, the reason I stayed in this crew is the main producer and director in this programme is my acquaintance, and moreover, I'm very interested in the plastic surgery. if I worked in this crew, it also means I have the opportunity to work in the surgery room, to see the bloody surgery by my flesh eyes.I could also talked a lot with these girls who wanna to do the surgery on them, I could observing their psychology adjustment from the very beginning. I think it would be a great experience for me since I could know the different kind of people and different attitude on specific stuff. It could be a good material for my further documentary experience.
   It's 8th of September. I just finished  my work and I decided to take a walk along with my colleague outside the hotel in the midnight. The ourdoor air remains so fresh to me since I hadn't been out of this hotel for 10 days working on my postproduction.
   The new doc truely brings me new experience and new notional to me on plastic surgurey, In China, most women who wanna to have a plastic surgery have mental disease --- phscycology problem I mean --- more or less. I came across a Kroean doctor who is also a doctor peforming surgery in our programme, he told me that a lot doctors in China seems lack of resposibilty and professional mortal education and which to me, I feel shame on that and I begin to worry about my and my parents healthy status. A friend of mine who working in the hospital told me that there is always distrust between patient and the doctors in China before. Now I understand what she means.
   I will be back in Beijing in days. Vacation is Over,My life should turned to my orbit again.